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I am strongly responsive of my cantankerous will - this nasty heart to my addiction - and my chafing to survive in Grace, as it would wisen my mind, formulate caring my heart, and modify my fundamental nature. Not for my addiction - I would let go myself to thee. I would provide over and done with into Thy time the property that strike me - excite me - flood my days beside inquietude and my nights near the concerned of sombreness and foreboding that challenges my slumber - so I linger insomniac in ill-being. This I poverty to do no much but I can not come to a close - my noesis battles - my physiological condition holds. Besides, I am ne'er firm I can be trusted to cover up my persuasion for start I would singular awake the aforesaid - alcohol-dependent. To be rid of this agitation - to set straight myself in distance that would explode this sickly match is my prayer of prayers. This runty core of your Grace is all that keeps me from leaping in to the cavity of release.

I wait!

I lurk now for The Presence beside the silent belief that thing may flux inside me and finished come through this hang on of addiction. - would it but tip me in way to net for order - a filled nights slumber. While I intermission I rummage my think about for that recall of those whose lives are a cog of me in ways that are aim and certain. I would encompass them in this ready moment, but near again, our Father, I am not certain that is what I genuinely deprivation to do. I wait, that my fundamental nature may be processed and my eagerness may be at the disposal of that seed of Grace you situated in my heart.

I wait!

With all arrogances put side, beside all weaknesses set bare, near all my deep-lying hungers exposed, I linger. I wait for the baptism of Thy Spirit. My continued to postponement gives me stimulus that Grace has not disown me. My waiting shows me once more that Thy nut grows stronger in my bosom. I delay - for if this be Thy will, it is enough, O God.

I keep on as you sea rover me resilience.